mine was full of ambivalence.

and i don't want to explain why.

okay, maybe just a little.

went out with a friend (details won't be discussed, sorry) and i went home after.

i was either happy or sad with the gimik, feeling neither good nor bad.

ambivalent.

that's the perfect word to describe how i felt.

hay, Lord. that was a moronic (dunno if there's such a word, but that's how i want to describe this >) experience.